sometimes , i ask myself whether the smile that i'm wearing is it real or a fake one. i myself dont even know whether its real or fake. well, i'm kinda not me this few days . i'm down , i'm easily hurt , i'm not strong , i feel like dying , i'm not cheerful , i'm not even smiling , i'm just faking it yes , i did. moodswings ? i dont think so . but yeah , thanks to Allah , my close friends are here for me , maybe bestfriends buzy with slacking and he forgot about me , nevermind i understand. thanks to Bobby , Faiqah and NisaJ fr being there when i'm in need. Thanks to Bobby fr cheering me up when Epain isnt here by my side . ♥ yes , my osm friends have been tha one that is with me all this while. thanks to them , i wont ever do any stupid stuffs . (': i just miss my bestfriend , tha one who usually care about me , scolded me fr using a metal ruler to slash (OK THIS IS LAST YEAR!) , be there when i'm in need of him , advise me about stuffs . I MISS YOU OKAY BESTFRIEND ): he's buzy , i understand let him be . (': loving someone is hard . well , its complicated. seeing other happy couples walking together , holding hands , hugging each other , i'm jealous yes i am . but what to do , things change. i'm gonna go kpopping for awhile and then ehad to bed , its 1249 am already , and i'm still awake like an owl .
*yawn*
